Developing an intimate relationship with our Father is something to which many Christians really haven't given a lot of thought...or effort. That may seem weird, but I know that it's true.
When I decided that there was a God, that was good. But at that first revelation, I didn't have a relationship with Him. Acknowledging people wandering around you doesn't make a relationship with them. Until you can get real, get honest, maybe squabble with the Lord or even try to wrestle a blessing, you're still on the first date. He made us in His image, but obviously with the ability to really screw up. And we're all good at that. It's a fallen world, but with Jesus came grace and mercy. What an incredible gift and testimony to His unfailing love!
We all get mad at God at some point, if you say you never have, I suspect you're lying....and our spirits can fall. Yeah, that's either us or darker spiritual forces poking at us...whatever your take on it, it happens...and God knows every miss-step. Completely. And, He understands. He does! Are we to suppose that we can hide any thought from Him? Shall we walk around with fake smiles on our faces? Well, sure, go ahead. We can fool people, but never our Abba Father.
No, I think when the going gets really tough, it's better to be down on the floor, slobbering, weeping, angry even, at our circumstances or even with our Father....completely naked before Him, broken. No guilt about our weaknesses, our sicknesses, our faults. He knows every single one of them. The important thing is that we DO take them to Him! That's what He wants! He wants us to turn to Him; for answers, for comfort, for a RELATIONSHIP! We can't handle stuff by ourselves, and it is especially through these moments of raw honesty and broken-ness that we develop a most beautiful and intimate relationship with Him.