I gotta get back to work. I can't wait for school to start.
I'm in a fog lately. I notice that I can't remember squat; I forget where I put something, EVERYTHING, etc., I left the stove and the oven on yesterday. This is a bit scary. I'm taking ginkco (sp) for tinnitus and blood thinning, so I can only imagine my brain function without it. Is this what 50 brings?
Or, is it too much stress? I am worried about the budget after spending on the yard, but it had to be done to protect the house.
Now that I'm feeling more energetic, I'm going to lose my mind? That doesn't seem right. I'm looking around at all the stuff that needs doing, and I'm tellin' ya, friend, it's overwhelming. Am I the only one that feels this way? Or, is it "that time of life" for me? Now that I'm at an age where I don't give a damn what people think(ooh..that might change my "G" rating! It didn't) will I remember all the fun I'm having not giving a damn??
Our oldest kitty, Harriet, is looking pretty fragile in the last couple of days, so off to the vet we're going. We're feeling a mite guilty that we haven't always gotten her hyperthyroid meds into her, but she disappears sometimes. When you take in a stray outside cat in, it's near impossible to keep them in. We've had her over 10 years. If we do try to keep her inside, she does...things... in our home....unspeakably foul things...She's anywhere from 12-18 years old...who knows. Anyway, I'm a tad depressed about her condition and anxious about the appt. Update: she had disappeared for a few days and that already compromised her fragile condition. Her liver is stressed because she didn't eat for a couple of days. They gave her fluids and some meds, we discussed euthanasia, but when she got home she ate and drank; this morning she got up and ate and drank.
My son tells me that I love to watch those "Clean Sweep" shows because what they portray there is SO bad compared to the way I view our home. We have areas of clutter. We have a small home, so there are places that become drop off points for stuff we don't know what to do with. But, it's a CLEAN home. I hate filth. I just have to get rid of the stuff we don't need. But, it feels like it's always MY job...and it's not all MY stuff. Anyone else have the clutter bug?? I try to clean out and throw out for 15 minutes at a time. But then, more clutter appears. Very frustrating. Suggestions appreciated.
So now you know I don't have my stuff together. Oh. You probably already knew that.
Further proof of my nuttiness:
Phone call today--
State Troopers: Thank you ma'am, we'll be sending that out today, and can I get a 100% confirmation that you'll turn that around by August 3rd?
Me: Well, my gosh and golly, what happens if I don't send it in by the magic day of August 3rd?
ST: You get a reminder.
Me: Oh, I thought maybe the world might come to an end.
ST: No, ha ha.
Me: You know, maybe Jesus might come.
Me: Well, you know, if I don't send it in by August 3rd, and Jesus might come, well...I'd be tempted to not send it in by August 3rd, you know?
ST: Ha ha...yes ma'am! Well, you have a good day!