Sunday, November 22, 2009

Unrestful Sunday....

I'm in a snarky mood today. Seeing selfishness, judgment, meanness, mockery, entitlement. All very ugly. Some personal problems that are very painful.

I lost my minister that I would be calling right about now. He would call me in similar circumstances. Ironic that we saw each other very little. Phone was our communication. Just hearing his voice on the other end brought me a little closer to hearing God's words to me. Mike had one foot (or more) in the spiritual world. I miss him keenly.

Husband's work is way affected by the economy right now. Their customers are waiting on Obama money and are not purchasing. This is so indicative of what happens when the government steps in. Thomas Sowell, in "Vision of the Anointed" gives statistical fact about what happens to a society when the government intervenes. It simply creates more neediness and poverty. We will be taking a salary hit in December. All employees are required to take unpaid vacation in December. They are employing these methods to avoid any layoffs.

Although I'm not supposed to be working full-time, I've been subbing full time to offset salary cuts, and am going to apply for certification to teach. I'll be working toward a Special Ed certification since those jobs are hard to fill. My doctor is not pleased, but it's about all I can do now to help rebuild our retirement and anticipate tax increases thanks to Mr. Obama.

Art is very sketchy now. Punny. No one wants to pay a reasonable rate for murals. I had one woman, who lives very nicely in a very large house, offer me $75 to paint a small mural in her kitchen. That's okay, they exhaust me anyhow. Takes me 3 days to rest up now, after painting a large one.

This has been a season of losses, of illness, of frustration and alone-ness. I'm feeling spiritually bereft. Can you tell? ;-)

It will change, it always does.

8 comments:

Kansas Bob said...

"This has been a season of losses, of illness, of frustration and alone-ness. I'm feeling spiritually bereft."

I can so relate. Transitions are so hard. I hate the changes that life is forcing me to make.

Here's hoping that 2010 brings good stuff.

karen said...

Amen, Bob. I know you can relate, and I'm sorry that it's so.

Robert said...

Right there with you karen special friend. i echo K bobs sentiments that 2010 will bring better days. I am always cheered by your holding onto hope regardless of how hard things are. Rest your body as you need too, call sometime. HUGS!!

Abby said...

I was reminded last night (because I couldn't sleep at 3 a.m. Yay for stressing about finals!) that ultimately, no matter who's president and no matter who's buying what and no matter who's working part-time or full-time, our resources don't come from men or from this world, but from God alone. It's something I've had to keep reminding myself of since losing my job back in February, but ultimately, no matter what's going on in this world, He will provide (both financially and physically!), just as He always has!

*hugs*

... Paige said...

Abby has it right as we very well know. What was it about 3am that woke me up too?
I personally don't want any obama money he has no right to pass it out...

Peace be with you my Sister and love stay in your heart.

Milly said...

I'm praying for all of us.

karen said...

Abby, yes, indeed. {{hugs}}

Paige, peace to you, too, dear sis. Hugs for you and your beloved.

Milly, you have your hands full, dear. Hugs to you, too!

Mark D said...

I think I probably exhausted you with my FB response. :)